church signs.

i drove past this church sign today that read, "faith is a journey, not a destination."

now, to backtrack a bit, i have a small obsession with church signs.  my mom and i dream about driving cross country, taking photos of our favorite church signs and publishing a coffee table book about the adventure. we imagine this book to be mostly comical, as i usually find most church signs pretty hilarious (ie. "walmart is not the only saving place"). but this one i found insightful.

i am a firm believer that time is a funny thing.  ever read eckhart tolle's book, a new earth? well, he rocked my world with his time chapter.  although i got a little lost in his verbiage his main point (i think anyway) is that if we continue to obsess over time, aka the future, we will miss all the possibility in the present.

think about it. how many times do you recognize and acknowledge what is happening right now? 

i try to stay present as much as possible, especially as lillian grows by the minute. but, seeing this sign tonight made me realize, i think so much about the months to come.  i am always asking others mom's how old their children are so i can imagine what lillian will look like when she is that age.  i think about when she can sit up, when she can eat food, when she needs a high chair, when she walks, talks and goes to high school. i mean, i think 10 years into the future! and honestly, i don't know why. i mean, i guess it is human nature? 

i bought a sippy cup with a straw today. but she isn't drinking anything yet that would require the use of that cup. why did i do that? part of it must be the fact that i am anally organized need to always be prepared and for her to have everything she "needs" the minute she "needs" it (we have all experience "mom guilt" right?). plus lets be honest, we live in a get it now world.  but i digress.

bottom line, i want to soak up her now.  i want to smell her baby smell, hold her tight because she still needs me to do so, rock her to sleep because she lets me, breastfeed her exclusively because i am lucky enough to do so & just love every inch of my 5 month old as she is, right now.